Keeping a blog is a lot harder than I thought it would be. When I started this, I felt like I really had something to tell the world and wanted people to see it and use what I said. It was naïve of me.
Though I’m learning things and can sometimes give advice, I don’t think I have the right to assume I know best. It was arrogant of me to think that I could tell anyone something that they couldn’t learn from somewhere else; particularly since what I want to say is likely better said than I can phrase it.
Every information post I tried to make felt preachy and stuck-up. I kept thinking “Hey! You’re just learning too!” and ended up deleting most of what I’d done. I still want to make informative posts about what I know, but I have been going about it the entirely wrong way. That’s a mistake I’m going to try to not make again.
I wanted to make posts about my fantasies too, but I didn’t feel right doing it. I don’t necessarily want to make this a place used just for S&M masturbation fodder. Perhaps saying that is arrogant too.
I need to find a good medium that I can feel pleased with. It’s going to be a long journey, but I feel like I can do it. And I hope that anyone reading will come along with me for the ride.